Edit…
Well it was an edit, now it isnt, welcome back to myself, i’ve been meaning to write here, its still kind of unclusterfucked from the last four months. I have my bike exam (CBT) this Thursday so i hopefully wont be around this desk for too long anymore, going to get out more and do things, and stop my mind ticking over this. Come to conclusion i already knew is true, face facts that i lost, not big, i could have lost fucking huge.